Escocia, mi amor
How do you say goodbye...? I came here on September 3rd 2010, which truly seems like only yesterday, but then, when I look again, it seems like a lifetime ago. It has been my dream since I was about seven years old to go somewhere different and learn, and I finally achieved that goal, but unfortunately at some small personal cost. I came thinking the world was sending me signs, small signs that said “Jessica should go to Scotland!” and I took those signs at face value and came, and look what happened to me, I fell in love when I should have just been in Scotland. I guess this then will be my first ever love letter, and I am writing to Glasgow, Scotland, and all my friends that I have met, and brought with me to this wonderful place.
Before I came people were preparing me for disappointment, or maybe it was a short-lived love, and I thought I would most likely be here for two months enamoured with everything, and then fall into my general Jessica slump after that and continue on as normal. The city would lose its glamour, and the people would become boring, and everything would be the same, just relocated. The study abroad house at the University of Denver warned that most people go with elation to another country, and then fall into despair after a few weeks, and then their lives level out back to normal. Maybe my experience is too short (it likely is, a year would have been better, 4 years of study would have been best) but I have been happier than I have been in a long time gallivanting around the country and the city. So no disappointment, I have loved the whole experience, every single step.
My first day here, you scared me. I was afraid that nobody would be nice (very funny) and that I would be dying to go home after a few weeks. My first week, I was surprised. It is literally the longest I have been outside the United States, and I was still alive, I was breathing, my heart rate was normal, and everything was functioning as usual (just with less milk). My first month, I was absolutely amazed, and truly in love. The city of Glasgow is gorgeous it’s everything I ever hoped for in a city. The people are nice fantastically so, the shops are cute maybe even adorable, and everything was so new, and fresh, and exciting again. I had learned before this experience to settle in the world, and forgot about the life that can happen all around you. I was finally meeting people who are literally from all over the world, and are just as excited as I was to see new things, and study (yes, I am a studying person, and I loved studying abroad at a “real” school). I started classes, and I was learning on my own time, without having my whole life scheduled for me. I was (finally...almost) able to drink like normal people do, and just sit and enjoy other people around me at well everywhere, it seems like a stupid thing to care about, but it affects your lifestyle in so many ways. I fell head-over-heels in love, and now, I just don’t know what to do.
| a fantastic view to the city centre, and it even includes a mini cooper |
As this is all quite new for me, I must wonder what steps to take next. I know for sure that one day, as soon as possible I will again be visiting my new home, which is my first step. It’s funny now walking around I just smile at my good fortune at finding this place (Not that it was off the map or anything, but it isn’t on a lot of people’s maps so to say). I love that this place always makes me smile, it always makes me laugh, and I am so happy and blessed to be here. I wish everyone could experience something like this simply over a geographical location. So United Kingdom, Scotland, Glasgow, friends I have met in this country, I love you with all my heart, and I promise to come back to you soon, don’t ask me for any specific dates ( I need to get money first). When I can I will, and you will never be able to release me to the outside world for more than two weeks again.
Endlessly yours,
Jessica

